i'm getting myself a little bit upset. i don't think one of my friends is talking to me anymore. it's really upsetting. it's like this week is meant to destroy all my bridges, burn them to the ground. i want to reassemble it, make it better than before, ensure it can withstand the weight or forces against it. i don't think i can do it on my own though. it certainly takes two to tango, and three or more to line dance. maybe being a solo act is something i need for a while. i'm trying to understand their points of view, trying very hard to take my own boots off and to place my feet in theirs. it's difficult. it's not exactly a challenging task,